Not knowing how you're supposed to feel or how other people expect you to feel, how other people are going to react to the things you say or whether you're saying the right things to the right people.
This is how I've been feeling for the past 2 months.
Since the start of September, everything's been a bit of a whirl-wind, everything happening at once and then nothing happening at all.
Of course, the main cause of this, is boys.
Things didn't work in my last relationship which ended in early September.
The break up was messy, and people got involved where it was unnecessary, but two months on, we're eventually on good terms.
There's been another boy since then, nothing happened but he meant a lot to me. He's happy with another girl now and i'm happy for him, so the only thing to do was to move on, which is what I did, to the best of my ability.
The frustration continues, as few days ago I received texts that really made me think about how much a valued my ex.
He's an amazing boy, and im truly sorry things ended the way they did, because I honestly believe it could have been something very special.
Now im stuck with the grim reality of having feelings for someone that I don't really want to have, not now anyway. The only up side of this is that he seems to feel the same way, or so said his 'drunken texts'.
'Frustration, although quite painful at times, is a very positive and essential part of success.'
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