My ex, the one I was just starting to trust again, the one who admittidley I still had feelings for, asked me to be in a relationship with him again.
This was on Sunday.
I told him I needed to think, as I didnt want to be getting myself into something that was going to hurt me, he said this was fine and we carried on being friends as normal.
Two days later, on the Tuesday, I get a text from a friend, asking if I used to be involved with him. I replied yes, and then she went on to tell me that he was 'getting on' her friend. A friend who I also knew.
Out of curiosity I texted the girl to ask what had been going on, just to find out that she had been at his house that day- What they were doing I didnt want to know.
When asked, he admitted to this, but went on to blame me for 'Taking to long to answer' and 'Even though he still loved me he wasnt going to wait around forever.'
Im not sure what anyone else thinks, But im pretty sure two days is not forever.
Anyway, I havent spoken to him since and things have been pretty grim, but they're starting to look up!
It was christmas yesterday and I got some pretty sick things, including One Direction, McFly, Olly Murs and All Time Low tickets! And im off today to spend time with the extended family, cousins etc.
I've realised that I need my friends more than anything, and I've realised how lucky I am to have my bestfriend, one of the only people that will probably read this, Sam, Thankyou for everything, youre amazing.
'I cried today... not because I miss you... or even wanted you... but because I realized I'm gonna be all right without you.'
