Needless to say, I'm in a pretty shit mood.
I will never understand why people, mainly girls, feel the need to be so bitchy, two faced, and fake.
Im no angel. Everyone is sure to bitch at some point in their life, and I am definitely a culprit of this, but there's a difference between sharing almost an opinion once in a while, and downright, full on, bitching.
As a result of this bitchiness, I have 5 people in my life that I can fully trust and I'm not afraid to share who they are. My mum, My sister, Sam, Jaynaa, and Libby.
These 5 people are the only people who have been there for me 100% when I needed them, and always managed to pick me up when I was sad. For that I am eternally grateful.
I know there's probably only one of them that will actually read this as it's a private blog, and they know who they are, so I'd just like to thank them for everything they've done for me, even when they havent been feeling brilliant themselves, I love you xxxxx
Tuesday, 22 November 2011
Monday, 21 November 2011
The feeling of frustration.
Frustration is possibly one of the worst feeling that anyone could ever experience.
Not knowing how you're supposed to feel or how other people expect you to feel, how other people are going to react to the things you say or whether you're saying the right things to the right people.
This is how I've been feeling for the past 2 months.
Since the start of September, everything's been a bit of a whirl-wind, everything happening at once and then nothing happening at all.
Of course, the main cause of this, is boys.
Things didn't work in my last relationship which ended in early September.
The break up was messy, and people got involved where it was unnecessary, but two months on, we're eventually on good terms.
There's been another boy since then, nothing happened but he meant a lot to me. He's happy with another girl now and i'm happy for him, so the only thing to do was to move on, which is what I did, to the best of my ability.
The frustration continues, as few days ago I received texts that really made me think about how much a valued my ex.
He's an amazing boy, and im truly sorry things ended the way they did, because I honestly believe it could have been something very special.
Now im stuck with the grim reality of having feelings for someone that I don't really want to have, not now anyway. The only up side of this is that he seems to feel the same way, or so said his 'drunken texts'.
Not knowing how you're supposed to feel or how other people expect you to feel, how other people are going to react to the things you say or whether you're saying the right things to the right people.
This is how I've been feeling for the past 2 months.
Since the start of September, everything's been a bit of a whirl-wind, everything happening at once and then nothing happening at all.
Of course, the main cause of this, is boys.
Things didn't work in my last relationship which ended in early September.
The break up was messy, and people got involved where it was unnecessary, but two months on, we're eventually on good terms.
There's been another boy since then, nothing happened but he meant a lot to me. He's happy with another girl now and i'm happy for him, so the only thing to do was to move on, which is what I did, to the best of my ability.
The frustration continues, as few days ago I received texts that really made me think about how much a valued my ex.
He's an amazing boy, and im truly sorry things ended the way they did, because I honestly believe it could have been something very special.
Now im stuck with the grim reality of having feelings for someone that I don't really want to have, not now anyway. The only up side of this is that he seems to feel the same way, or so said his 'drunken texts'.
'Frustration, although quite painful at times, is a very positive and essential part of success.'
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